Imaginary Gardens

It turns out that in the whole month I've only written one single entry which...yeah, sorry about that. Everything is still very much status quo, in that I've done another Italian course and I've kept going to therapy. I haven't done very much of anything else. There's been some anxiety, some shouting, some let's just lie down and pretend we don't exist.

Although lately I've been riding a do all the things! wave which doesn't go beyond the thought that I could, indeed, do all the things, but I never actually do them. I just come up with grand ideas of how I could study Italian, German, French, and Mandarin, clean out my entire room, start up a vigorous exercise routine, organize some 10,000 words of headcanon into an actual story, and of course, find an apartment in Berlin and also take up baking courses, go back to school, send out all the job applications... I think you get the idea of what my brain has been doing. (Being a little shit is what it's been doing.)

Also this past week I seem to have been all over the place and hello, impulsivity in that I skipped class twice (which I never ever do) and splurged on high-heeled shoes which, should I trip, will undoubtedly result in a broken nose and ankle. I mean, I've always wanted pumps, but still. My buy all the things! battle-cry is pretty unusual, considering I can spend ten minutes pep-talking myself into buying a stick of gum. ("Do you really want the gum? Is it worth spending money on this?")

In other news, I continue to be incapable of reading books (or articles, or paragraphs, or anything because what is attention span) which is why I have about a thousand started and in various states of completion. I'm slightly better at watching things, and have made my way through much of Richard Armitage's filmography (Spooks, Strike Back, and currently Robin Hood) and I also sobbed my way through Being Human (UK).

But basically, my supply of squee seems to have petered out (except for brief moments where I start dancing in my bedroom and everything is awesome, which, what?)

Oh, and I've discovered Macklemore's The Heist album and want to cuddle it forever.

In conclusion: the status quo continues and I might just die here.


Quote of the Day: Clive Barker, here (as quoted by Neil Gaiman)

If you get loud, everyone else gets louder to top you. And then everyone's shouting and nobody's listening. If you want everyone to listen to you, get quieter. People will listen.

Links of the Day:
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* Clown, Billy Madison

So...I haven't done a proper update entry since June 18th. *sheepish look* Yeah, well, nothing much going on, really.

Still horribly unemployed and basically unable to deal with doing anything about it because I happen to like shooting myself in the foot. The brother's been trying to run intervention on this, but seeing as his pep talks leave me weeping in the corner for the rest of the day, not so much with the helping, that one. ( Read more... )

I've been trying to do things, though, even if I haven't been actively looking for a job.

(Well, I tried twice. Once, I didn't find anything and ended up crying over, well, my life and my [horribly uninformed] choices, and the other time I actually sent out an application, so, y'know, success.)

Basically the things I've been doing include diving headfirst into Teen Wolf and not getting behind on Tumblr (the tiny little sparks of joy in my life), writing up the code for those travel posts (which I keep pushing through mainly because I try to finish what I start, but also because chaosvizier is awesome and provides hilarious captions to the photographs, making it all worthwhile), and making fanart. Oh, I've also stuck pretty well to an exercise regime this past week, even though the temperature here is murderous. Seriously, it's mid thirties all the time and yes that includes goddamnit I want to sleep but instead I'm lying here sweating time.

So that's how I am. A little bit of "lalala I'm not listening", some "let's go into emotional hiberanation!" and some "I. Am. Going. To Die." existential panic. \o/ Anyway, have some thingies I made and some links.


Back Cover, Track List, and Zip

Fanart: ( Includes Firefly, Supernatural, and a shit ton of Teen Wolf )



Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Multifandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* "It Gets Better", Fun.

Still looking for a job, when I can pull myself together enough for it, and as for everything else, meh, same old. Mom was gone for a week, which was nice, and I got along a lot better with my dad with her gone. Things are back to the not-so-good now with the folks.

In other news, I now have a Craig Parkinson situation. That's on top of the Andrew Scott and Benedict Cumberbatch one. "Watch ALL their things" is my battle cry.

As for Supernatural, *shakes fist* I'm hanging on out of stubborness, a love for the characters, and the faint hope that certain minor characters will come back or will have their stories resolved, but all I'm getting is pain. Come on, Show.

Oh, and Game of Thrones Season 2 is coming this week. \o/

In other, other news, I made a fanmix for Charlaine Harris' The Harper Connelly Mysteries series:


Back Cover, Track List and Link

Also there's some fuckery going on with the internet:

All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012


Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Sherlock: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* Richard Siken, "War of the Foxes"

So obviously not being successful with the whole "not forgetting livejournal exists" thing but then again, not much to tell. Life continues to trudge along and the highlights are silly fangirling.

Currently I'm all a-squee over Andrew Scott, currently best-known as Sherlock's Jim Moriarty. In fact, jim_in_westwood's fics are the first I've read in ages. (I've been unable to get into the fanfic-reading groove for ages now.) If Andrew is the sort of things that's up your alley, here's some of my tags and posts on tumblr: ( Read more... )

Another thing getting much squee is a series of headcanon thingies I'm doing with seschat for the Holmes brother's relationship, youth, parents, and post-Reichenbach days.

Also Richard Siken's poems are my favourite of all things at the moment. I bought his collection Crush when I was in Chicago and it is beautiful.

And I made fanart, again: ( Read more... )


Links of the Day:
Sherlock: ( Read more... )
Misfits: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* Finger Eleven, "Paralyzer"

I keep writing posts in my head, in detail, about all the events and feelings and musings I want to share or simply need to set down. But then time passes and I get everything together and then there's nothing to say. I've been quite lax in posting as of late - and by that I mean something like the past few months, honestly - and for that, well, sorry. If anything for the out-of-date links. Whatev'. I hope everyone had a good New Year's Eve and Day, and wish y'all the best for 2012. Smile! If we live through the Mayan apocalypse, we get to look forward to the Croatoan virus.

One reason I've not been writing anything is that I've been spending all my time blissfully mellowed out with Tumblr. Another, more acceptable reason, is that there's nothing to say. Which is of course a lie because I could always pull something out about fandom, at the least. But lately I've not been doing much. Well, I've been finishing compilations (see below). But otherwise not really doing much of anything. Today I went out running after weeks of impersonating a hibernating grub and I started looking for plane tickets to go visit my brother, although that's causing all sorts of anxiety because I don't even know. (The looking-for-tickets thing, not visiting-my-brother, mind.) I did go socializing that one time, with my volunteer-work supervisor, which was lovely and wonderful, but it's quite sad to basically be able to point at a month or a string of months, "That's when I hung out with folk." So I've been Tumblring a lot and watching a lot of television and huddling under every warm thing I can find and generally not thinking about much of anything. Except maybe about how I'm still waiting for a Christmas card from mrscastielftw to arrive - it's somewhere in the between-homes postage ether - and it's getting to be a long, sad wait. It doesn't help that I've been falling asleep at 4 am these past few days.

Even now I'm drawing a blank, just that I really wanted to post because a) it's the new year and I might as well tell y'all I'm not dead and b) Links of the Day. So there you go. Oh, and memes. Now, excuse me, I have some American Horror Story to streamline into my veins.


Back Cover, Track List, and Download Link


Back Cover and Download Link


Back Cover and Download Link


Contents and Download Link

Fandom Questions Meme: prompted by seschat ( Read more... )

Meme: Have you read more than 6 of these books? ( Read more... )

Quote of the Day: marika_kailaya, here

this is what i figure the holidays end up being an excuse for: "i love you! nobody's watching right now. nobody's going to bat an eye. everybody loves somebody right now."

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Doctor Who: ( Read more... )
Sherlock: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* Angus & Julia Stone, "The Devil's Tears"

Supernatural, "Death's Door" (7x10): ( Read more... )

Lord of the Rings Fandom Rewatch: Join the December marathon! Everybody watch the extended editions! This weekend, The Fellowship of the Ring.


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* Anon.

I am bloody freezing - at home, at the office, in my bed. It's nineteen degrees in my room and my balcony doors believe in breezes. *shakes fist*

I'm trying to post more often, namely so that I don't drown in links, but also because I just seem to have lost the habit of writing shit down. I've been using the same diary since 2007, for example.

Sickle's Supernatural Review, "Defending Your Life": ( Read more... )


Meme: 30-Day Original Story Development Challenge ( Day 18 )

Quote of the Day: mangacrack, here

For your soul I flew to hell alone.

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Doctor Who: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* The Colour of Magic by TPratchett (oh gods it's as old as I am)

Television Without Pity - Battlestar Galactica, "Daybreak, Part 2"
When Will the Work Be Done? by Jacob ( Excerpts )

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Multifandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* Gaius Baltar

Hello, dolls! I'm back, although Ye Great Retelling of my vacation will have to wait until I go through the hundreds of photos and all that fun stuff. Short version is I went to Vienna, Prague and Budapest and it was glorious \o/

As a result of all that, though, I'm now a bit swamped in all my projects and behind on all things fandom, although as you can tell from the LotD, I'm trying to catch up.

At work today I came across two articles which were upsetting for a number of reasons. Background information for the amnesiacs and newcomers: I spent four months tracking lions in Amboseli, namely five radio-and-GPS-collared ones, which means that for four months I saw them nearly every day and learned about their lives and prides and then analyzed the shit out of everything. ( Read more... )


Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Doctor Who: ( Read more... )
Sherlock: ( Read more... )
True Blood: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Multifandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* "Old Mary", The Dead Weather
** I can only hope someone's thought to use my ID database, which is a whole new can of upset worms.

Sickle's Social Squee (and the Not So Squee): ( Read more... )


In other news, I've watched all of the guest-starring-Mark-Sheppard episodes of BSG and am still a bit on the fence over whether I like the show or not. I can see that it's good, but it hasn't quite gripped me. Still, I've been reading Television Without Pity's recaps of the episodes I watched, and apart from being astonishingly well-written in the analytical and poetic sense of it all, they make me want to watch the show in full, if only to get a sense of these vast sweeping themes. So BSG is still on the List of TV Shows to Watch.

However, that's not what I want to share today. What I want to share is reason 2349 why Romo Lampkin is awesome.


He's handcuffed and has a big bad soldier with an even bigger, badder gun aimed at his *squints eyes* well, ass, really. And you know what? He kills that solder dead. With a pen. A stolen pen.

Did I mention he's a lawyer?

GIF Meme: ( Read more... )

Video of the Day: BBC's Choosing to Die (2010), with Terry Pratchett ( On the right to assisted dying. )

Meme: 30-Day Original Story Development Challenge ( Day 14 )

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: ( Read more... )
Doctor Who: ( Read more... )
Sherlock: ( Read more... )
Other Fandom: ( Read more... )
Multifandom: ( Read more... )
Random: ( Read more... )


* Battlestar Galactica