Imaginary Gardens

I should stay and work for another hour at least, but considering my productivity is so pitiful related to time it may as well be negative, I'm going to throw myself at the weekend. (Also, I've started tearing up for no apparent reason, which is another sign I should stop.)

What I have planned for this weekend is rather simple. Today I'm going to run away head on off to the Hague and watch a movie. Depending on the time I get there, I'll watch Ice Age (in 3D, yes please) or The Hangover. As for the rest of the weekend...may wander around Amsterdam, but honestly, no clue.

This week's been pretty much shite all over. I've been working on a very boring and potentially pointless part of the analysis (making data sheets ftw!), so that's knocked me back a couple of brain cells. I've been completely unable to work on any side projects (which, seriously, how hard can that be?). I've been freaking out quite a bit (I blame the impending doom of hormones, not that it makes me feel any better). I haven't bothered going to the gym at all. (I totally should because I have never ever weighed this much. It's fuckin' scary.) I haven't hung out with people aside from Willy on Monday-Tuesday. In fact, most of my days the most social interaction I've had was speaking with the receptionist downstairs and Skype-chatting (although one may argue that words on a screen hardly qualify as "social interaction".)

And this all brings me to today's Quote-title. This may get messy. ( Horray from stream of consciousnes! )

And now I'm probably too late for Ice Age. Darn it.


Quote of the Day: Fionn Regan, "Be Good or Be Gone"

I have become an aerial view of a coastal town that you once knew.

Be good or be gone. Be good or be gone.

Links of the Day:
deanandsam's SPN Episodic Colourbars
natiyachan's SPN Fanfic Rec List
teand's SPN Fanfic: Eyes Wide Open, Running with the Winchesters poems
literaryquotes's Francis Spufford, The Child That Books Built - Flocked.
Bunny Comic Recipe: Flapjack Heaven
"Carry Me (Like A Fire In Your Heart)"by Chris de Burgh (lyrics)


* "Best Supporting Actor", One for the Team

A Brief Summary of Life for the Sickle:

She is terrified and tired and trying. She is packing and pacing and panicking. She is needy and nervous and not quite coping.

Latest Actions: Writing list after list after list. Setting things in "Stuff for Kenya" pile. Packing all belongings away. Attending Supervisor meetings. Developing a cough. Desperately emailing Mother. Standing around crying.

Current Desires: Company.

Soundtrack For the Past Three Days: "Painting Pictures of Egypt" by Sara Groves

Is that the reason behind all this time and sand?


* Breastfeeding, sleep and other needs of little babies

I got kicked out of the computer lab - I thought they closed at 6:30 instead of 6:00 because I've been working at the Biology building everyday after class until closing time, which there is 6:30. I didn't get much work done, just found some photographs of parks and reserves in Kenya and Tanzania.

Then I went to the supermarket for whatever might cheer me up (Confettinni Caketjes**, wine, sushi). Obviously that failed because I almost burst out crying the in the super, then biked home and stood helpless in my room trying not to collapse on the floor and uttering these pathetic whines. Then I replied to Kit-kat's email, opened up the wine, and looked up YouTube videos.

Am now delightfully numb. The brain's on hold, the emotions are on hold... Everything's good.

Cat Stevens - Another Saturday Night (Sam Cooke) - Live 1976

Oh Yusuf, I miss your music. Moonshadow is one of my all time favorite songs ever. (But please stop it with the head-ducking tick.)


BBC - Planet Earth - Lion pride hunting elephants

One of Africa's largest prides, at 30 individuals, has specialized in elephant hunting. The footage is missing the crucial parts - actually downing the elephant - so I'm still wondering just how they do it. I know from elephant calf kills that the lions have to learn to go for the trunk, especially since they can't get a strangle-hold on the neck, but I can't wrap my mind around how they bowl the pachyderm over.


( More African Predator Footage )

Remember when the fimmakers and cameramen never appeared in documentaries? When the soundtrack was super minimal? Ah, the good ol' days.

Links of the Day:
The Daily Mail: Astonishing pictures of the cub killed for insolence by Jane Freyer


* "Another Saturday Night", Sam Cooke
** Albert Hein flat muffin cake thingies with pink icing and confetti thingies

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( I'm also miserable and verbal about it. )

ETA: I would totally appreciate shiny happy things and links and kittens-inna-teapot and inapropriate macros and sexy men being sexy and hamsters rolling over pianos and shit like that. Share 'em if you got 'em.


* Meme sentence.

This weeks has been the longest ever - and others concur, which makes me suspect the Time Monks are up to something - meaning I've mostly been bored out of my mind or watching Dr Who.

The weekend has been mostly a form of hibernation, what with me not doing anything and being all alone (save for phone calls with mom which have left me bawling both times).

I haven't done anything. Not today, not yesterday, not last week. Not with my life. It really has all been a waste of time and, as mom keeps reminding me, we only ever get one life. And I just may as well not have been handed over the time I have had, because I'm certainly not using it well.

I just can't seem to do anything.

And to put the emo-cherry on my woe-cake, as has been said, I can't find Dr Who's 2x09 (or Tenth Doctor 1x09) Part 4 or 5. They existed last week. I was going to make a lovely little collection of Dr Who episodes, but now I can't. I can't even count on small comforts anymore. I was so keen on making the little jewel of a DW collection...

I'm going to go bawl into the sofa now, kthnx.


* "I Will Follow You Into the Dark" Death Cab for Cutie**
** Thanks, meaningofliff