It's pulling me apart.*

[bending_sickle]

I cannot stop crying. After lying on the sofa like a lump for the whole morning, I cracked again. And it's not my normal crying - it's full-blown weeping is what it is. I'm alternatingly flailing and crumpling. I hit up mom on Skype and chatted a bit and did my whole run-on sentences things (like I'm doing now) and she was basically, "Stop crying! Action! Focus!" which sounds a bit more callous that it was but she's right except for the part where I can't focus because I'm a shivering ball of weep. I need to get out of the house, but I also need to read a shitload of articles I don't understand at all and find 5 more on a topic I don't understand for a presentation and I need to find out what wine to take to bribe folk so's I can have a place to live and I need to be all happy-yay on Tuesday and the fucking download of Locksmith won't fucking work and that's just fucking unbelievably annoying. So. I need to go out and clear my head and I don't know where to go because everything's always closed in this goddamn city and there's no coffee places except for the pot kind so I think I might just go to Schipol airport and hang out there because I don't know what the fuck to do anymore but I need to be productive and it's just not working. And now I have a headache and the universe fucking stole an hour out of my life with the whole daylight savings and everything sucks. I want to go home. Please make this stop.


* "Leaving New York", REM

Comments

[lienne.livejournal.com]

D:

*CUDDLES YOU*

*wraps in blankets, protects from evil world*

♥

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*hides under blanket*

♥

[lienne.livejournal.com]

*snugglecuddlehugglehearts*

<3 <3 <3

Seriously, you have no idea how hard I would be hugging you right now if it weren't for that inconvenient ocean. There would be squishing. And possibly lifting-off-the-ground-and-depositing-on-comfy-couch, with optional subsequent delivery of hot chocolate and/or tea.

<3

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

I love you. That is all. ♥

I lie, that's not all: Damnit! Why is there is big ocean in the way? Need squishy.

[lienne.livejournal.com]

*squishysquishy*

Damn that inconvenient ocean. I must make it go away so's I can go surprise-glomp my girlfriend and then pick you up and carry you out to a restaurant and feed you dinner.

:D

Yeah, that's pretty much the order of events. If I wake up one day and the Atlantic has vanished, you're on my to-pamper list directly below Caz.

<3

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*beams* *feels speshul*

Btw, odds are that I'll be in TO for Christmas again this year (parents aren't moving just yet). If we manage to be in the same city at the same time, I demand cuddles and outings.

[lienne.livejournal.com]

Hell yes there will be cuddles. And outings. And I might even kidnap you away for a day so you can sit there and goad me while I write BTO. (I've discovered with Masha that ficcing goes better if I have a good friend at my side with tea and a very metaphorical cattle prod. XD)

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

BTO! *zaps you* Do not make me wait till December for more, missy.

Must zoom to outside world now. Huggles!

[lienne.livejournal.com]

Huggles!

I'll, uhm, try? XD No promises. >.>

[blizzardcake.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie!!!!! *HUGGS TIGHT*

Man I wish I was already across the pond, I'd totally scurry over on the next flight down so that I could bake you a cake and distract you with random fun things!!

*HUGGLES AGAIN*

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*IS HUGGLED* Can't...breathe... Aw man, I just can't wait until you at least in the same continent. And hey! Remotely in the same time-zone! Whoot!

Don't worry about distractions - Mmm, Gackt!back - I'm amazingly good at those too good at those.