When you are angry or frustrated, what comes out?*

[bending_sickle]

I'm in a very strange mood, sad and frustrated and thus I guess somewhat angry and also on the verge of stupid tears. I just read an email from my uncle telling me when they're home and when they're on holiday, saying I can pop by whenever I want and I'm fucking crying over this too.

I'm also feeling land-locked and absolutely need to travel, so I'm going to Madurodam, even through it's near noon and it's windy and super-charged for rain and I already got soaked yesterday walking home in the three minutes or so of torrential rain, with the water falling down so hard there was a little knee-high mist of ricocheting raindrops. I've only been wanting to go since September of last year.

I was bored to tears yesterday, sat about in a park and cafe writing The Balloonist's Wife (which sucks and focuses too long on mere actions and doesn't go into emotions and just runs on and on but at least I'm getting it down) and then watched Doctor Who and cursed RTDavies for stripping Donna of her awesome forever and ever in the most fan-expected manner possible, and for copping out on the regeneration-explanation, and for so obviously contriving things so as to give Rose a happy ending because she obviously can't move on and apparently neither did Mickey, pretty blond boy notwithstanding, who walks away from an entire universe. Then I lay in bed and listened to Neil Gaiman read Neverwhere, still upset because I only have the audio starting from chapter 10.

Life may be full of peaks and dips, but by gods do I hate unexpected dips. And hormones. And suddenly realising that you've sort of finished everything you need to do and you need to start making plans for new stuff you need to do.

And home-internet died again Sunday morning. If this is a weekly thing, so help me, I'm going to break something.

Argh.

ETA: Not going to Madurodam, as it's way late and also raining, and I want to enjoy that visit, damnit. But I am getting on the train. Don't quite know where to, but I'm thinking a nice long train ride would be just the ticket. (Ha, pun.) Maybe Scheveningen, but then, that's the beach, and it's, as I said, shitty weather. I could go to Schiphol (that's right, the airport, shuddup, they make me feel better). I don't know what to do, and I'm rushing about being very abrasive in my actions, kind of wanting to just flail...

ETA 2: I've been meaning to complain about Season 3 and Season 4 parallels of utter lazyness in Doctor Who. Every phone in the world calling the Doctor? People standing around, murmurring his name, practically praying? Holy Tinkerbell! ...there were more annoying parallels of lazyness, but I need food and a different hormonal balance.


* H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

Comments

[capn-mactastic.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

If you're in a funny mood and need to get out, I would just go, damn the weather.

The Doctor didn't tell Jack and Martha not to contact Donna. So they do (not knowing that it's a bad thing) and she has the predicted meltdown. However, the Doctor underestimated her (like he hasn't done that before) and after a couple of weeks/months - and possibly a little help from Torchwood - she comes around and integrates everything. She then meets up with Dalek Caan (I refuse to believe that batshit little mutant is dead, he teleported onto Earth at the last minute - Hello? sacrificed his entire race to save everything? Sound like anybody else we know? WTF? why did the Doc try to save Davros) and they build a Time Ship and go off to have wacky adventures in Time and Space.

Unless the PTB come up with something spectacular, you will not convince me that that's not what happens.

I'm not even going to get into RTD's canon!Sue, I've already ranted about that on my journal :P

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

♥ muchly. I'm definately hopping on the train somewheres, probably not Madurodam because it's late and raining and I want that experience to be good, not sucky. But there will be much walking.

...I reject RTD's cannon and accept your own. I wailed at Dalek Caan's implied death. And yeah, I don't quite know why the Doctor was so instantly in the "save Davros!" mode, without even a little "Hmm, creator of Daleks, and we hates them, precious..." *zooms off to read your rant*

[capn-mactastic.livejournal.com]

I get those moments when I need to go somewhere too, it doesn't matter if it's logical, but I get frustrated and anxious if I have to stay in (and they always, always hit when I have to wait on for the gas-man)

I really couldn't understand the Davros thing, Chris suggested that it was the "Hero must try to save the villain in order to prove his heroicness and not!villain-status" trope done really badly. But yeah, I came away from that episode thinking "Sooooo, Dalek Caan saved the universe then? And died without any recognition of that? because he's not the Doctor and only the Doctor can have credit for saving the Universe? Yeah thanks for that message RTD"

lol, it' not that major a rant, I didn't want to get too upset :P

[blizzardcake.livejournal.com]

For days like these a hug is in order:

*HUGGS TIGHT*

Unexpected dips in life are nasty little things, and I wish they would just go away =(

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

♥♥♥!!! *hugs and clings*