Serious, for once
Nov. 16th, 2005 04:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bending_sickleOne of my great aunt´s died this morning. It was a sudden thing, though she´s been quite weak and had a cold. I can´t remember when was the last time I saw her, must´ve been more than a year ago. I do remember the actual day, though. She´d been loosing her memory for quite a number of years by then, so she didn´t know who I was anymore.
I remember that, as a child, she was my favorite aunt. Granted, the *only* aunt I had access to regularly when I spent summers in Spain. She´d take me on walks.
I know that ever since she began not recognizing me, I´d said goodbye. But still.
So I don´t know what happens now. I guess I stay here. My uncles, still on vacations, don´t know whether they´ll go to the funeral (though they´re relatively close to the area).
Am somewhat curious what the funeral would be like, and being at one. Never been to one, and this is only the second person I personally who´s died, though neither were, y´know, particularly close at that point in time.
Hope my close family members live a long life, or I a short one. Loosing them´s one experience I´d rather not have.
I´ve just spent a good while trying to explain here how I think it´d be harder to loose a sibling than a mother (which is a very big thing) but can´t really. I mean, you get used to the idea of parents having to go, but siblings have always been there. Loose a sibling and you´re just so much more alone.
Good god is this emo.
I remember that, as a child, she was my favorite aunt. Granted, the *only* aunt I had access to regularly when I spent summers in Spain. She´d take me on walks.
I know that ever since she began not recognizing me, I´d said goodbye. But still.
So I don´t know what happens now. I guess I stay here. My uncles, still on vacations, don´t know whether they´ll go to the funeral (though they´re relatively close to the area).
Am somewhat curious what the funeral would be like, and being at one. Never been to one, and this is only the second person I personally who´s died, though neither were, y´know, particularly close at that point in time.
Hope my close family members live a long life, or I a short one. Loosing them´s one experience I´d rather not have.
I´ve just spent a good while trying to explain here how I think it´d be harder to loose a sibling than a mother (which is a very big thing) but can´t really. I mean, you get used to the idea of parents having to go, but siblings have always been there. Loose a sibling and you´re just so much more alone.
Good god is this emo.
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Date: 2005-11-18 06:37 pm (UTC)very close relatives have died the past few years when i was at mcgill, and i was upset that i couldn't go their funerals. i haven't been to one since maybe my aunt's when i was 14 or 15, but i cry and cry even if i'm not close to the person. goodbyes for me are always hard, whether i knew them well or not, whether i was adjusted to the fact of them going or not.
and this is going to sound harsh, but i don't know how much harder it would be for me if a sibling died rather than a parent... hmmm. interesting.