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bending_sickleprofessor person finally replied
(the day after my um yeah hi it’s been three weeks have you gotten around to my thing yet so read into that what you will) and i have to edit things because be more experimental not just observational which *forever headdesking* i are bad scientist ugh
but since i’m still sitting here waiting on whether or not the hospital is going to call today (goddamnit people) i am freaking out to the nth degree here and going i can’t do this i don’t want to do this everywhere with a dash of i just want to apply and get this done please
but yeah okay i’ll tweak the proposal if i remember how to put words together which not so sure anymore because have i mentioned freaking out about all the things?
why in the name of all the undead gods hiding in the ocean did i check my email before the hospital might call window closed for the day why
le freaked-out flails, part deuxso professor person’s comments are minimal - don’t quote shit, this fact is wrong, fiddle with this sentence, here’s some new research - and honestly it’s only two paragraphs that need work but it feels like they scribbled all over the whole thing in red
i’m going to have to staple the fact that they called the whole thing “excellent” to my forehead.
also so my aims and objectives need work which i know i know they are kicking my ass i need help and i need to decipher what their suggestions actually mean and how to turn that into actual points
and in other news, no hospital today either so mom’s freaking out (the folks travel next week) and i’m going to call my ophthalmologist and see if he can’t poke his friend who should be my doctor but i never saw his face so idek what’s going on just freaking out everywhere yay
and i need to spruce up my proposal on top of this i can’t
going to see if i can’t email professor person and tell them thank you for the comments and how i’m totally working on the thing
*frustrated flaily slightly weepy noises*so i called the ophthalmologist and didn’t fail in my italian which yay and explained the thing and he says to wait the week out and see if the hosppital calls and if not then he’ll call his doctor friend on monday or tuesday and see what’s going on.
tomorrow and friday will continue to be “sit by the phone” days or mornings and gods fucking know when i’ll have to brains to work on the proposal, possibly the weekend, because ahahaha not happening today because i am freaking out
* TPratchett, Feet of Clay (1996)
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Date: 2014-02-12 01:40 pm (UTC)Still, I know how frustrating it can seem when something you've prepared receives some minor criticism and you're all "Oh god oh god we're all gonna die and I am the epitome of suckage". But you will do fine, you'll edit the few minor changes they suggested, and then awesomeness will happen, and you'll be so happy that alcohol will be begging to pour itself down your gullet, and also you'll have a pimping gold eyeball with laser tracking, and I think I got distracted somewhere in the middle of this paragraph, but I meant well. Pretty sure about that. Yeah. Did I stop drinking already again?
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Date: 2014-02-12 01:50 pm (UTC)By which I mean *cuddles* Yeah, editing the proposal is totally doable and not anything that will result in horrific eldritch creatures eating me head-first. Just...aims and objectives, whaaaaat do I do with them. I need a couple that are experimental and just *mind-melds with a desk* The prof gave some suggestions but my brain can't compute them today.
As for the eyeball, it'll happen when it happens, it's just that the folks are leaving for a month starting end of next week, and I am the loneliest panda in this city so we were kind of hoping to avoid the whole "world's loneliest panda in hospital for days and days by itself with nary a hot nurse to pass the time" situation. Eh, I'll make do.
In conclusion: *clings to your coattails* ♥
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Date: 2014-02-12 02:03 pm (UTC)...wait, I have coattails? OH CRAP I KNEW I GRABBED THE WRONG JACKET TODAY but it could be worse, I could have said YEAH YOU CAN GRAB MY TAIL ANY DAY but man that's way over the line and THIS BOOTY IS TOO BIG FOR YOU TO HANDLE and then it's back to SERIOUSLY WHY AM I NOT DRINKING MORE RIGHT NOW OH GOD OH GOD
Happy Hump Day!
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Date: 2014-02-12 02:48 pm (UTC)Aaaand if your capslock is anything to go by, I'm not sure if the question should be "Why am I not drinking more" and instead "Why is my gin bottle empty and where did the gin go?!"
In other news, I watched a terrible (terrible) Kiwi horror movie yesterday and have just made post about it, for your enjoyment.
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Date: 2014-02-12 08:25 pm (UTC)You just helped remind me that I've seen TWO Kiwi horror movies, both of which were terrible. You are currently talking about the terribler of the two, because Black Sheep at least was funny.
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Date: 2014-02-12 08:48 pm (UTC)Yeah, Black Sheep was fun.
Speaking of terrible Kiwi horror movies, I've also watched Snakeskin (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0244803/?ref_=nm_flmg_act_21), which is technically a thriller, but it's got drug dealers and demons and gore and a lot of stupid, if you're feeling adventurous and are fully stocked with gin.
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Date: 2014-02-12 11:33 pm (UTC)Yay for excellent proposal! Boo for no news from the hospital.
*more snuggles* *and the synchronised tumblepup event*
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Date: 2014-02-12 11:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-02-14 01:58 pm (UTC)Yay they thought the proposal was excellent! And that's likely the most important thing really, don't be discouraged about the comments - one annoying thing about the PhD experience is that there will allllllways be comments damn it, things can alllllways be improved. Tweaking, tweaking is good. I can totally understand how you do *not* want to think about tweaking right now, but at least you can allow yourself to be proud for all the work you did, which was goooood. So take a deep breath, curse a lot, and if your heart is in it at all, start with the editing so it can be over and done and then you can get to the awesomeness, like
Lots of hugs re: the eye thing :( It's really terrible how you have to go through this whole terrible thing, and goddamn it why do hospitals always give a freakin' *interval* for when they'll call, don't they know that's terrible for morale/nerves? Here's hoping you're holding up ok, and the flailing is a bit less today than yesterday.
*many many hugs*
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Date: 2014-02-23 06:45 am (UTC)Also: added you as a friend which why hadn't that been done already?!
Also also: I feel like an amnesiac idiot asking this but you're totally who I think you are from Tumblr, right? Except I thought I'd added you as a friend on LJ when you gave me your LJ name and...apparently not. Unless that's not you in which case: hello new friend! I've been wracking my brain but it's a useless little thing.
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Date: 2014-02-23 09:20 am (UTC)Also, ahahahah, yes, I'm beenworkingonacocktail on tumblr :) I was vaguely wondering if that might be a thing that's happening, hence the hints in the last comment (reduced to hints bc what if I was wrong?). I guess that's what I get for breaking all contact between my LJ and my tumblr in a fit of panic :D
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Date: 2014-02-23 10:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-02-23 10:15 am (UTC)*glomping intensifies*
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Date: 2014-02-23 10:27 am (UTC)The icon's from Bunny Comic (http://www.bunny-comic.com/) which I haven't checked out in years but is adorable and weird.
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Date: 2014-02-23 10:35 am (UTC)Oh man, that comic looks so cute and strange - and ahahahahha, I wrote that after already forgetting that you'd described it as adorable and weird :D Clearly awwwwwww and ehhhhhhhhh?? are the two main reactions the comic generates :D