The purpose of fear is to raise your awareness not to stop your progress.*

[bending_sickle]

have just emailed research proposal to prof person. *cue screaming*

i am still nowhere near the actual official application process or am i because prof person’s asked for my transcripts and references and now the proposal and that’s shit that goes in the application.

so on the one hand i feel like i’ve gotten a lot done but on the other hand nothing is actually official so nothing matters and i could very well not get accepted and then i would die. (no, seriously, you guys, like i have one sad little egg in one tiny little basket and it’s hanging off over the edge of a volcano and the string it’s hanging from is so so so thin and i am freaking out)

and then if i do get accepted there’s the whole grant fuckery (how does that work why would people give me money what do i have to do i can’t handle this) and then there’s of course the actual visa shit and then and then and then

i am a distressed velociraptor


* Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Comments

[lienne.livejournal.com]

aww man /velociraptor cuddles

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*cuddles back (veeeery carefully)*

[chaosvizier.livejournal.com]

Sad Raptor is Sad!

Yes, it may be one egg in one basket, but it is still moving forward, and there is still interest, and it can still succeed. Don't pre-emptively panic; just pump out all that Science Stuff until you can't Science any more.

I'd give you grant money to study bats, but it's probably limited to the five dollars and a bunch of coins in my pocket. So... yeah, no help here. ;-)

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

Pre-emptively panicking is kinda my thing, though. (My panic over future "what if" situations is ridiculous. Like, I once locked myself out of my uncle's apartment when he and my aunt were out for a week and I'm flew head first into the "Can I ninja my way through the balcony? What if I have to sleep on the streets until they come home?! and then I DIE!")

You just telling me to keep truckin' is help enough, it really is. *cuddles*

[capn-mactastic.livejournal.com]

*smiggles you* (it's a cross between a smish and a snuggle, I've decided)

Moving stuff towards being official is getting stuff done, because if you don't do that stuff then it can't get official. So, you know. It makes sense in my head.

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*smiggles back* *clingy cuddles* Your head is a wise head. <3