I rant, therefore I am.*

[bending_sickle]

Everything sucks. We have hit rock fucking bottom of suckitude and my parents hate me and I've practically lost my voice and apparently according to the wisdom of mother I might as well just pack up my shit and leave and that there's people out there earning a living flipping burgers and it's my own fault I'm unemployed and I might as well have never come here anyway and I COST THEM SO MUCH MONEY and I'm so going to regret talking back and I'm all why don't I just throw my stuff out the fucking balcony and she's all well yippee and then I'll follow and she's still with the yipee and I say she doesn't give a shite about anything I do and she's all oh but you never tell me and I'm all you never fucking ask and dad wanders up to my door AFTER HIS FUCKING MOVIE IS OVER AND NOT A MINUTE BEFORE and is all I want to talk to you and I'm all fuck the fuck off my heart is breaking and I'm freaking out and I cannot talk to anyone fuck off and he's all no I want to talk and I'm all NO TALKING and he wouldn't go away and my voice did though and then he did and it's not like he ever gives a fuck anyway and fuck them both for not caring and for telling me I'm worth shit and it's my fault I'm unemployed and there's no one who wants me and it's my fault I haven't made any fantastic friends in Rome and everything sucks and I have no one to talk to and I am so far back into a corner in my life my spine's gone funny and I am just so miserable and I can't stand it that I've been graduated for six months now and have nothing to show for it but blisters and an utter lack of credit for my thesis and my supervisor's being all oh I have to ask the current PhD student if it's okay for us to share your thesis with this other project group and I'm just WHAT THE FUCK and my Master's is worth SHITE and FUCKALL and there's no jobs I can apply for and I'm not even getting the luxury of going insane which would be nice because REALITY: FUCK YOU and I'd rather be the social isolation monkey I was before EXCEPT I WAS COSTING MONEY AND WE CAN'T HAVE THAT OH NO because at least then my mom wasn't telling me how much fail I am and I have the first day at the volunteer thing tomorrow and I've been going on for weeks with chronic nausea and that's not good that's nerves and stress and I want to please just get out of this house and country and have a job even if it's gutting salmon at the cannery except I wouldn't get that job anyway because I haven't studied fisheries or butchery or whatever I'm useless and my life sucks and there's lives that suck more but this one's MINE, BITCH and I'd like to return to fucking sender and why do I have no one I even emailed my brother a giant wall of text and rant and I never do that and anyway he's probably not going to be supportive when all I need is supportive I mean the whole fight with mom was basically YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT ME BE SUPPORTIVE NOT CRUSHING and I emailed my fucking BROTHER about my woes and I just would like to please not be now or I would like my mother to be a mother and ask what's wrong non-judgmentally and to actually fucking LISTEN and be mothery or at least as nice as strangers on the street to me and not tell me how to answer telephones or how to act at the volunteership or how to look for a job or how to make friends and which friends to make and what they should be like and I even sent her the Yahoo thing of how to be a good parent AT WHICH SHE FAILS IN IMPORTANT BITS like the LISTEN and not judging and all those things and I just need a fucking PERSON.


* Dennis Miller

Comments

[lienne.livejournal.com]

Oh, man.

Can I just pick you up and carry you home and feed you muffins and cuddle you forever?

<33333333333333333

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

Yes. Until I burst like a volcanic eruption of muffins and icing-lava.

[if_inconvenient]

*picks up*

*carries home*

*feeds muffins*

*cuddles forever*



*uses RP journal*

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

Your RP can take me home anytime ;)

*snuggles*

[if_inconvenient]

I am sure the fact that this guy is TinyHolmes as portrayed by TinyRDJ has no influence whatsoever on that outcome. ;)

*squishes* ♥

[seschat.livejournal.com]

NGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH *writhes in agony*

PLEASE GET OUT OF THERE D:

I'm so sorry, love! Come live with me? D':

♥♥♥

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

I'm better! Things are better! Well, okay, things are the same in general but they're being lived with in a better way which is good. It just a matter of time and hanging in there like a psychotic monkey with suction-cup paws.

♥ x infinity (and beyond!)

[seschat.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear that! Just remember that I've got your back no matter what, yeah? Even if it's not much – DO NOT THINK THAT I WILL HESITATE TO SEND OUT EVIL THOUGHTS IF ANYONE DARES TO MISTREAT MY LADY LOVE. YOU DESERVE GLITTER, COTTON CANDY AND CAKE. PLENTY OF CAKE, D'YOU HEAR ME?

With that cleared up, I shall at once return start on my Spanish homework with dread ardour! :D

[seschat.livejournal.com]

Also, some major OT:

Were you ever or are you in any way involved in the Harry Potter fandom? Just asking, because I could point you into the direction of some brand new and bloody brilliant Remus/Sirius AU that is guaranteed to lift your spirits. Slash is good, slash is your friend. *nods solemnly*

*offers hugs and cookies and undying love* ♥

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

Damnit, woman, I keep thinking I can't love you more and then you go on and say things. Ow, ♥!

I've dabbled in HP fiction, not too deeply, but Remus/Sirius slashy goodness will be very much appreciated \o/

Although I live for Snape snark. Allow me to share the epic snark: evadne_noel's Once Upon a Freakin' Time (http://evadne-noel.livejournal.com/tag/ouaft) (♥ so much) and So You've Decided to be Evil (http://evadne-noel.livejournal.com/tag/sydtbe) (also her drabbles (http://evadne-noel.livejournal.com/56303.html) and Breadbox Movie Editions (http://evadne-noel.livejournal.com/tag/bbe) of win).

There. Try doing some Spanish now. :P

Sorry for the deleted comment in order to edit.

[seschat.livejournal.com]

Snape snark ftw! There's much of it to be had in Sam Storyteller's Stealing Harry, which you probably have read because it's famous like whoa in HP fandom, but if you haven't, I recommend it greatly! Nice length, awesome R/S getting together, raising Harry, actual plot – and sequels, where there is even more Snape snark! You might want to check it out.

Also, the fic I've read just recently and that initially brought on the squeeing and the please tell me I can spam you with Harry Potter recs talk: A Recipe In Four Parts.

Summary: Present day non-magic AU. The recipe: Remus, a down-on-his-luck junior accountant, is assigned to a small, equally down-on-its-luck business. The ingredients: add one handsome but surly baker, two young parents and co-managers, one energetic toddler, and one concerned best mate. Mix. Bake, let sit, and enjoy.

A very enjoyable read! *nudges you*

OT: Rohan Gotobed cast as Young Sirius Black in Deathly Hallows Huh. So not what I had in mind. ANYWAY. Also, yes, I'm a total Harry Potter geek.

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*opens links madly and promises to read them*

Huh. Rohan Gotobed has the Snape-snark look down pat, but he's not what I would've pictured.

[seschat.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I figure they want to be consistent with OotP, and while I think Gary Oldman did a splendid job and made a brilliant Sirius, he's not what I had initially pictured either. I always thought he was the Hugh Jackman kinda type, especially with hair like that. HE'S DREAMY, RIGHT?

The same thing goes for David Thewlis. While the movie probably got more right and than wrong about him, I do need to show you my perfect Remus. Also, for the hell of it, have a Snape comic! And, last but not least, this is prety much what I survived my teenage years on.

[seschat.livejournal.com]

ETA: I always thought he [...]

He, that is Sirius, and...

While the movie probably got more right and than wrong about him [...]

About Remus and with him.

Just thought I needed to clear this up. :S

[bending-sickle.livejournal.com]

*oogles Hugh Jackman* *drools all over self* But I'm still partial to Gary Oldman, for he is awesomesauce!

You know who I think was the best cast in Harry Potter? Hagrid, Lockheart and the fortune-telling professor (and her glasses). Also McGonagall, or however you spell it. I love Maggie Smith to bits.

Snape comic of win!