Somewhat better
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bending_sickleToday might be defines as a Good Day. Good only because I haven´t broken down into a messy snotty pile of me. That was Monday and Tuesday.
Those were Bad Days. Quite.
But since right now I´m a-ok-ish, let´s more right along and say:
Wow, fanfic inscest wank. Eep.
I´ve found some websites about graduate school, trying to find explanations about what exactly some of the gorram courses are.
And this because I´ve come to a few conclusions:
1) I´m having a hell of a time addapting to being here.
Subclause 1a) possibly due to being lonelier than a mollusc lost somewhere on a dingy gone awreck.
2) I don´t think I want to settle down here, or risk settling for setteling down here.
3) I´m going to quote Drew´s song "New Planet" for this one: "If I don´t find something better to do I think my heart´s gonna break."
4) I really have to figure out wtf I want to do with my life. For starters, where and what do I wt to study?
I was day-dreaming the other day about taking all the stupid exams the americans ask for and going to live in the states. And I always swore I´d never lie there. But I like everything they´ve got!
5) Find people to hang out with, even if all the things I want to talk about, rave about, or share would be completely intelligible to them.
I got a "tres bien" and "excellent" in my french chat today. Great phonetics, she said. I praised Montreal and now I want maple syrup.
When the hell is Pancake Day?
I´ve been waiting for my brother to come visit since December. Still no word.
*le sigh*
Those were Bad Days. Quite.
But since right now I´m a-ok-ish, let´s more right along and say:
Wow, fanfic inscest wank. Eep.
I´ve found some websites about graduate school, trying to find explanations about what exactly some of the gorram courses are.
And this because I´ve come to a few conclusions:
1) I´m having a hell of a time addapting to being here.
Subclause 1a) possibly due to being lonelier than a mollusc lost somewhere on a dingy gone awreck.
2) I don´t think I want to settle down here, or risk settling for setteling down here.
3) I´m going to quote Drew´s song "New Planet" for this one: "If I don´t find something better to do I think my heart´s gonna break."
4) I really have to figure out wtf I want to do with my life. For starters, where and what do I wt to study?
I was day-dreaming the other day about taking all the stupid exams the americans ask for and going to live in the states. And I always swore I´d never lie there. But I like everything they´ve got!
5) Find people to hang out with, even if all the things I want to talk about, rave about, or share would be completely intelligible to them.
I got a "tres bien" and "excellent" in my french chat today. Great phonetics, she said. I praised Montreal and now I want maple syrup.
When the hell is Pancake Day?
I´ve been waiting for my brother to come visit since December. Still no word.
*le sigh*
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Date: 2006-03-15 10:38 pm (UTC)i'm sorry. i really, really am. i wish things were easier for you, and you could discover what you want to do and WHERE you want to do it. it sucks that life is NOT that easy...
also, i have no problem with incest fics. hell, if in real life someone wants to sleep with their brother/sister, that's fine by me too. i don't agree with the person's statement in the least. (for clarification, i'm not attracted to any of my family members. for further clarification, i didn't read the comments in that post. because you know, i'm in a public library here, lol.)
you missed pancake day by a few weeks. i'm sorry. oh, alex wants your pancake recipe, btw, so if you could post it/email it to me, you'd make him very happy. if you'd like, we could coordinate a day where we both make pancakes and have a bi-country pancake day all of our own!
-kat
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Date: 2006-03-16 06:56 pm (UTC)It sucks that you are so alone and unhappy. I also know (I REALLY do) that things will get better. It really is no help that u are so lonely, but you're lovely so someone in that city must wake up soon.
We all love you and miss you. Kristen sends her love and so does Jane, Elif and Bella. We're all routing for you.
Congrats on the "tres bien" and "excellent" - You Rock
K