The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.*

Yup, still seriously fucked-up internet at home, so I'm at the ol'computer lab. I have a few pages of "what I would have posted had I only had internet"** I won't post all of it, 'cause some bits I'm still fidgetting over whether they're TMI (in the "too personal", not "ick" sense). But here's a bit of what's been going on.


[5: 51 pm] Saturday, May 31, 2008 – Leiden
The easiest things are so hard. – The Bravery, "Unconditional"

I’m typing this out rather than writing it in my diary – or rather than working or going out or doing anything else – because I’m bored to tears and disappointed because my one social plan for tonight fell through with a splash and my head aches ‘cause the atmospheric pressure’s stupid again. Also, I haven’t had internet in days and I’m starting to feel the withdrawal. I’ve got “Cathedrals” by Jump, Little Children on repeat. I really like it, especially because the chorus just sways so well.

( Did I mention I was bored? )

[11:10 pm]

( Food fails to be had. )

[10:39 am] Sunday, June 01, 2008 – Leiden
I’ve gotten good at chasing shadows. – Tom Langford, "Nothing Ever Was"

Breakfast is a mug of rooibos tea with milk. I might get out of the house and buy a pastry. Internet showed up, long enough for me to open up Firefox but not long enough for me to open my email. The gods are displeased with these shenanigans. That’s three days sans internet.


[7:54 pm] Monday, June 02, 2008 – Leiden
A homeless woman who sneaked into a man’s house and lived undetected in his closet... - The News

This woman lived in his closet for a year and was arrested after the man “because suspicious when food mysteriously began disappearing.” Were someone to try that in my house, they’d bloody well starve. (Sort of like I’m doing. Yay.)

Ugh. No internet again. And I closed Firefox windows last night, so I have nothing internety. Not even a meme. The woe! I’m now in bed with the radio on and re-experiencing exactly why I’ve sort of sworn off the radio these past years. (Although apparently Bo Diddly’s dead? My Dutch, not quite up to par.) Oh sweet god onna stick, fucking fog horns?!? The commercials are like a cheese-grater on my braaaaaaiiiiiiiiin. I’ve had just about enough of being patient with today’s long sessions at the computer lab – where people not so much work as play games and talk loudly and fail to be taken out and shot by Justice.

I sort of was going to talk about Lost, but I am le tired and I already said a few things in a comment to qthewetsprocket which I’d like to expound on, if I can ever remember them. But, before I forget, ( here’s some random spoilery stuff, with a Richard&Ben crack dialogue included )

[10:17 pm]

( Hey! Who turned off the lights? )

Links of the Day:
wtf_nature links to The Five Most Horrifying Bugs in the World and proof that Macho-Man Innitiation Ceremonies serve only to glorify stupidity of the Darwin Awards level. Whyyyyyy?!?
Michael Emerson radio interview
wtf_nature brings us the End of Days, c/o insects. The gods have abandoned us! (wtf’s comments are awesome
Are You Smarter than a Hyena? by Brian Switek (About how social behaviour in spotted hyenas may have resulted in intelligence similar to primates.)
Crucial important of pack size in the African wild dog Lycaon pictus by F. Courchamp and D.W.MacDonald, or “Why am I working on my project when it’s already been done professionally?”
Kink-prompt post of win, linking directly to “Steven Moffat/Lawrence Miles, D/S. Neil Gaiman watches.” I love fandom.
Japanese homeless woman lives secretly in man’s closet for a year. Only in Japan…
Laurence Miles’ wank post on Steven Moffat or “I’m not bitter at all, honest.” (The manips and quotes on the side are hilarious.)
Ruth’s Fanfic: Rupert Giles Tells Lies
CCleaner: freeware system optimization and privacy tool. “It removes unused files from your system - allowing Windows to run faster and freeing up valuable hard disk space. It also cleans traces of your online activities such as your Internet history.”
culf’s Icons: JSimm in The Locksmith, off qthewetsprocket’s screencaps.
meegat, on henrygalelovers (don’t judge me!) posts Micahel Emerson’s part in Sky One's "Lost: The Answers Are Here".


* G. K. Chesterton
** And at this point, I'm taken away for unjust cruelty and abuse of the word had. Poor thing.