bending_sickle: (Shitty day)
Have some more of that life and employment crap. Read more... )

So I've been feeling like crap today. The only good thing is that unlike yesterday's three-hour walk about town looking for goddamn cards to send to darlings, today I found awesome cards at, hilariously enough, the same bookstore chain I tried two of yesterday and it only took me two hour and most of that was me staring at the cards and trying to figure out if people I hardly know will like them or be offended (although how one can be offended by reindeer, I don't know). Anyway, I got cards and it's awesome. Some even have glitter.

I haven't made much progress on sprucing up Time 3. (Sorry [livejournal.com profile] seschat! I need to write a missing-scene-that-really-ought-not-be-missing and a meme-drabble and then fight with Word's pagination and then edit it for the free proof and and five copies) thing. What the fuck am I going to do with five copies of what is basically half a novel and I'm not even that pleased with it? Or, well, with three copies, 'cause two I know what to do with. But argh. Five. Maybe in a few years I'll throw them all together into an omnibus, or maybe even an anthology of stories and novels, but this year is not that year because shit still needs to be written. Damnit, Time 3, why you not end?! ...maybe I can resolve it in the Time 0 novel I want to write. Like, instead of flashbacks being the tid-bits, flashforwards as the little extras. Oooooh, two birds might have just hit the ground!

Aaand I'm going to go off and watch something wholesome or funny or whatever, because my head, my heart, my gods... Don't quite know what I'll watch, because we're entering that period of "everything's on hiatus!" which is the curse of the holidays. Except Sherlock, which is apparently a few weeks away, and Doctor Who, which is love and coming for Christmas.

As an aside, I can tell I'm getting older because suddenly an average of six hours of sleep a night for the week doesn't kill me (until around 10:30 pm, after which I am dangerously close to the dozing-off range). How so awake, body? (I still pack the hours in on weekends, though.)

Enough ramble. I'm not sure if this or my long-stretches of silence-and-links is better.

Quotes of the Day: 1) [livejournal.com profile] cleolinda, here and 2) Denis Leary
Because even when you grasp the idea that depression is an ailment and not a personal failing... it still feels like a personal failing. You know you're clinically depressed, but you feel like you're just lazy, lonely, hopeless, pathetic. Or sometimes you don't realize you're ill, because those feelings of anxiety and shame and helplessness sneak up on you and feel legitimate, and that's why you don't realize you need help. [...] Because your sadness and fatigue and anxiety feel mild at first, and they seem like rational responses to things going on in your life, and then you end up missing some deadline or not completing some goal or not living up to your own expectations because you're already sad and tired, and then the negativity does seem justified: "I'm not depressed; I'm a loser."

Most people think life sucks, and then you die. Not me. I beg to differ. I think life sucks, then you get cancer, then your dog dies, your wife leaves you, the cancer goes into remission, you get a new dog, you get remarried, you owe ten million dollars in medical bills but you work hard for thirty-five years and you pay it back and then -- one day -- you have a massive stroke, your whole right side is paralyzed, you have to limp along the streets and speak out of the left side of your mouth and drool but you go into rehabilitation and regain the power to walk and the power to talk and then -- one day -- you step off a curb at Sixty-seventh Street, and BANG you get hit by a city bus and then you die. Maybe.

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Stephen Vincent Benet
bending_sickle: (Shitty day)
This is going to get messy. tldr: Real Life is shitty. )


* Stars, "Calendar Girl"
bending_sickle: (Invisible?)
Sickle's Random Points of Random: Read more... )

Meme: The 28th GIF in your folder is our new president. How screwed are we? Read more... )

Meme: Cross off the things you've done: Read more... )

Meme: Bold What's True: Read more... )

Meme: Ask some invasive questions: Read more... )

Quote of the Day: Wikipedia, "Loneliness", here
A person who feels lonely regardless of if she is at a family gathering, with friends, or alone is experiencing chronic loneliness. It does not matter what goes on in the surrounding environment, the experience of loneliness is always there.

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
Sherlock: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Marshall McLuhan
bending_sickle: (Fuck this shit)
Things have been horrible lately, especially last night and this morning, due to horrid, horrid fights with mom which started off over my wearing gloves on a Spring night or a black dress this morning and escalated into how she should've thrown me out of the house at 18 and how I'm obviously insane. In an attempt to compensate the sheer amount of suck, I refused to go to my German class today and instead hunted down a candy store and sat in the Piazza del Popolo eating sour gummies. Tomorrow I have a meeting with a guy from Organization (whom my mother met a the French cinema) so that he can "inspire" me and tell me how wonderful it is to work at Organization, as if I haven't been trying to get an internship there for a year.


* "Parenting Never Ends", Hello Saferide
bending_sickle: (Not funny (except it is))
I forgot to say yesterday that Palermo was awesome (and y'all will probably never see photos of it because I apparently suck at coming through on promises like that) but the rest of this week has been hellish. I got home Sunday night and there was no hot water and I'd been looking forward to a hot bath like crazy, especially since I'd had cramps all day I am not kidding. We got it fixed Wednesday, until then, cleanliness came in a bucket. The recently-boiled water was always too hot. Cue fist-shaking.

Then the electricity went out all afternoon on Wednesday, and the heating never came back, so it was a delightful 16.5 degrees in my room and there was a lot of huddling under the covers. I am so tired of being cold (and I said as much to Mom, who promptly snapped that she'd hoped I'd be "tired from something else (you lazy ass)").

The good thing, though, is that my internship supervisor's letting me take time out to look for a proper job. This is apparently a less depressive task when done in a proper office where I have to keep it together.

Quotes of the Day: Secret Diary of a Call Girl (3x7) & Castle (3x17)
Hannah: Sometimes you value least the people who love you most, until you remember that without them, your life is worth nothing.

Castle: He knows we're on a deadline, right?
Beckett: Yeah, he knows.
Castle: I mean a literal deadline. As in, you go over the line you're dead.
Beckett: Castle, can you just give him a chance?
Castle: I- I'm happy to give him anything he needs, it's the clock that's not cooperating.

Meme: Good Things:
Day 29: I sent out 7 CVs! And (sort of) drew my first sketch in years! Lookit! )

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Shana Alexander
bending_sickle: (Invisible?)
...gnah. Playing catch-up is just down-right cruel. Since I'm all maxed-out and couldn't string together a sentence even if you hamsters on a flying saucer would be wicked cool I'm going to aerodynamic bumblebees don't exist just leave the Links of the Day here along with some there should be a name for the fear of snapping your neck memes and other things of the day.

Oh, and Supernatural's "The French Mistake" was brilliant and hilarious and had second-hand embarrassment and why didn't I like Misha in it?!? That's as coherent as I can be for now.

Also, why didn't anyone tell me that Misfits was all up in the science fiction and fantasy and people with ~*powers*~ zone? That's my cup of tea!

Also also? Brain won't write, but damn will it come up with images I can't bloody draw.

Meme: What colour is your rainbow?: Read more... )

Meme: What animal is your Golden Compass daemon? Read more... )

Meme: Good Things:
Day 22: Palermo & crostata! & the best candied orange slice I've ever had!
Day 23: Palermo & Manuale d'amore 3!
Day 24: Palermo & cannoli!
Day 25: Supernatural made me LOL for real :D
Day 26: The sister of a friend of my mother's said there was an opening at her company, so I spoke to her and sent her my CV.
Day 27: I sent out 4 CVs!
Day 28: I sent out 10 CVs!

Quote of the Day: [livejournal.com profile] emerald_embers, here
Holding a small furry animal close to your chest is the closest to being God you will ever get. I love it.

and here
Today a customer casually chatted to me about his boyfriend while we were fixing his broadband fault. Earlier this week another customer mentioned that her girlfriend's computer was connecting fine though her own wasn't.

As a society we still have a lot of improvements to make, but the fact that there are people who feel safe enough mentioning their same sex relationships in conversation with a complete stranger means that there's no doubt about it, there have been improvements since I was a kid. And that's a good, comforting sign, even if those improvements are taking more time than they should <3.

Video of the Day: Rammstein music video (with cartoons) XD Read more... )

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
True Blood: Read more... )
Sherlock: Read more... )
Heroes: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Multifandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Kin Hubbard
bending_sickle: (But I won't like it)
Today was sprinkled with suck, apparently. Consider that it started with my not getting out of the elevator at warp speed, so that it flew right back up to the very top floor when a neighbour rang it. "But I saw the button go dark," he said, referring to the "I'm free! Call me!" button. Yeah, but dude, you have to give me time to get out once the elevator lands.

Then there was work. Work was frustrating because I'm editing the format of a bunch of articles for a collection, and by gods are the articles in some serious need of formatting. Some only give half their references, others throw in copy/pasted lists, and still others decide that one-line paragraphs are teh awesome. Why can't people do things right the first time, or at least be consistent in their own article?

But that wasn't it, either. The office is cold. Like, very cold. Like, I wear wool sweaters and fingerless gloves and sit next to the portable radiator while the heater is rumbling on in the background. That's cold. But my co-worker - the substitute secretary who's from round-about my generation - insists on forgetting to close the door behind her whenever she leaves the room. Rant is ranty )


Also, my mother's back, as I might have mentioned, and we're back to me sucking and me not being able to breathe without being a rude daughter and obviously not even trying to get out of a house I'm just leeching off of which I am trying to keep my head together and not die a little support would be nice. Oh look, another rant. )


I think you can see why I'm not really up to posting or writing or anything at all these days. Like, I have a queue list on YouTube from October, and a fanfic I haven't touched in almost four months, and fanmixes that have been live for two months and still haven't been pimped, and it took me like two weeks to revise my CV and rant continues )

AND I KEEP GETTING SPAM COMMENTS ON MONTHS-OLD LIVEJOURNAL POSTS WTF.


Meme: Good Things:

Day 13: I had the house to myself for the almost-three hours between internship and German. Also, there were cookies.
Day 14: I watched New Moon with Rifftrax. What, it made ma laugh.
Day 15: ...I'm going to watch John Simm and Philip Glenister and other people be awesome on mad Dogs 1x02 and it will be good.

Quote of the Day: [livejournal.com profile] cleolinda quotes her mother, here
"Your job," she says, "is to call for help."

Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
True Blood: Read more... )
Human Target: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Multifandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* [livejournal.com profile] cleolinda, Twilight in Fifteen Minutes
bending_sickle: (Obsessive)
Today at the internship I returned to the translations, which is sort of a relief on account of the lack of interminable scanning, and on the other hand, it's me, back where I started. I need this oompf to get me a little bit further now.

There was another metro&bus strike this morning, which meant I got to go to the office's neighbourhood a full hour before work actually started and, plus, I got to freeze my bum off sitting and walking around the sad, empty little streets.

Mom's off to Spain starting this morning, so it's just my Dad and me until Wednesday. I trust we won't starve, although to hear my mother speak and see her stock the freezer, you'd think we didn't know how to feed ourselves. Mind you, I think I'm having McD's tomorrow.

Tomorrow, speaking of, I'm going to head over to the far reaches of the city and try and get my fiscal number. It will undoubtably involve a lot of waiting and hopefully not too much paperwork. Beurocracy for the not at all win.

I've spent the afternoon revelling in having the house to myself and working on almost a week's worth of Links of the Day (oh, compulsive organization!) On Sunday Dad and I are going to see a Swan lake ballet showing - we managed to nab free tickets from our landlady for some reason. I think I might force myself to go jogging sometimes in the weekend too, and I have to write a comment in a Goethe forum for my German homework (how wack is that?).

In other news, I'm dying to finish The Pillars of the Earth and hey, new Supernatural this week again! \o/ I'm really looking forward to seeing more of Puppy!Sam. Ah, it's almost like seeing Season 1 Sam all over again! (Except he doesn't have the adorable bangs of adorableness.)

Meme: Good Things:

Day 5: CV! In Italian!
Day 6: Chat iwth girl from German class!
Day 7: House to myself!

Video of the Day: Sia's "Soon We'll Be Found" - So pretty! Read more... )

Quote of the Day: [livejournal.com profile] metaquotes thead
[livejournal.com profile] shoemoney2night: After being tickled by the names of 17th century Puritans [...] I did some reading and discovered some more brilliant Puritan names. A Sussex jury roll from 1650 list includes the names Accepted Trevor, Redeemed Compton, Kill-Sin Pimple, Fly-Fornication Richardson, Search-The-Scriptures Moreton [...].

[livejournal.com profile] 17catherines: Am I the only one who wondered why the puritans were interested in fornicating flies?

[livejournal.com profile] shaysdays: I think it's more, "Fly away, oh foul temptation of our mortal bodies!" not "Screeeeew meeeeeee!"


Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
Human Target: Read more... )
Sherlock: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Multifandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Small Expression
bending_sickle: (Fangirling)
Meme: Good Things:

Day 4 - Thing 1: OMG. Aadslkfjsoefj! Slkdjfgosierf! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!




Thing 2: My internship supervisor brought me something from Argentina! Read more... )

Thing 3: Pillars of the Earth Parts 2 and 3 and the sexy, sexy men it has. Cut for teh overpowering smexyness )

Thing 4: I edited my CV! WHOOT WHOOT, MOTHER-LOVERS! Whoot the shit out of that thing \o/


* Common expression
bending_sickle: (Obsessive)
This week seems to be the week of Good and Rarely-Had Food, considering yesterday's the chocolate mousse, huevos rancheros (fried eggs and fried corn flour tortillas? Heaven!) Plus, Dad brought home tamales this week because his office got together and ordered some made. I haven't had tamales since what was probably the last century, and these were alright. What I really miss from Mexico - apart from the deliscious sandwiches they made at my school shop and Pelón Pelo Rico - are falutas. Oh gods, what I wouldn't do for one of those... Today we continued the food trend with roast lamb, which is something we'd usually have in the summers in Spain and I'd wait for every year. Wee little lamb ribs are so deliscious! I don't care how cute they are!

In other - more international - news, Egypt is happening. In the more personal - potentially selfish - news version of this, because Egypt is happening, and other countries are also happening, the project I was working on - that job I had - has been cancelled. I'm going to get paid for January, but that's it. Back to the dead-end internship. *tries to kick self in the pants and get a move on with the job hunt* *fails miserably*

Yesterday I watched my first ever episode of Private Practice. I'd been seeing the promo for the episode all week for 4x7 and thought, well damn, that much drama has to be seen. I was a bit sad to see that Tim Daly wasn't as astoundingly hot as I remembered him from the Grey's Anatomy episodes 3x22-23 (but then, it's been 3 years). I mean, look at this sexy thing! embeded )

Well, the episode was good and dramatic and all that jazz but I stopped caring for a good long while because all I could do was flail and point and squee things that sounded like "Nicholas Brendon!" and "Xander!" Oh, it was so good to see him on the screen again! I haven't seen Nicholas in anything since Buffy ended, and it was so strange to see him even more grown up - where those grey hairs?!? Plus, it was absolutely delicious to see him be evil. I had a massive crush on Xander in early Buffy (well, until Angel swept me off my feet with the brooding angst). It was 1x06 The Pack that really kick-started the mad squee. (Even though it also peeved me the hell off because hyena packs are matriarchies and the males run away in terror from the females.) Even way back in 1997, I had a thing for lanky evil guys. Just look at the sexy! embeded )

Curious Sickle Fact: I always thought Nicholas Brendon looked a lot like Raine Maida (of the band Our Lady Peace), although this might have been influenced by my learning of the two's existence at the same time. However, the best evidence I can offer: Read more... )


Meme: 80 Questions via [livejournal.com profile] ginnith: Read more... )


Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Larissa, in Sandman #65: "The Kindly Ones:9", by Neil Gaiman
bending_sickle: (Invisible?)
I suppose even if I say I've been meaning to post for the past week it doesn't detract from the fact that I haven't posted this whole year so far. It's not for want of things to say, either, just that time seems to have taken amphetamines and is working double-fast. So I'm going to try to catch up in the time-honoured fashion of bullet points.

Why Rome Is a Bad Place:
  • On the mid-morning of December 31st, my mom was making her way back from the market with a few bags of vegetables walking down a main street near our house. Then Bad Things Happened )


Sickle's Daily Life:
  • I can has job! Okay, so it's part-time and for a limited time at that (January to May) and at the Institute where I did my internship, but still. Job. Read more... )

  • Any day now, the proof copy of Time We Saw a Miracle is going to make its way through the US mail system and there will be joy and rejoicing. Well, maybe not, because it's going to my brother's address (so much safer than asking an American company to send something super special across the pond to Italy). Still, book.

  • I've been working on the four (oh gods, four) fanmixes for Time We Saw a Miracle. I've got three with their songs pretty much narrowed down and in a decent enough order, which still amazes me because I had so many songs to wade through.

  • I read The Red Tree by [livejournal.com profile] greygirlbeast (Caitlin R. Kiernan) this past week although "read" isn't the word so much as "avidly devoured".

    I was a tiny bit disappointed for all of two seconds when I discovered that the novel wasn't written in the wonderful run-on sentences of Threshold (because gods do I love that writing) but as I said, that lasted two seconds and then I was hooked and loving it.

    Oh, and I totally called The Thing About Constance, but that's okay because while I suspected it, I never really believed that's where it was going, so was still pleasantly surprised and still thoroughly enjoyed the slight paranoia I was sharing with Sara.

    I was not expecting the sex scenes or maybe it was just two details that stuck in my head and won't go away, involving sex toys, but either way, it fit.

    I was struck by a few details like the insomnia and the seizures where I could point to and say, hey, [livejournal.com profile] greygirlbeast's Real Life is poking though, and that was actually nice because I could draw upon all her descriptions of what she's gone through and understand it all the more. I also liked that a few details and scenes I could pick out from Threshold's universe-vault, or maybe it's just [livejournal.com profile] greygirlbeast's general universe details and I just haven't read enough of her work to know.

    Still, there were spoilers )


Sickle Hits the Fandom:
  • Grey's Anatomy is back, baby! There were happy couples and rapid-fire drama and sweet jambalaya Christina Yang I missed you. The characters made me happy, except Meredith who for the first time ever completely alienated me from her drama and made me say, "Good gods, woman, you're being petty and over-dramatic." But then Cally was all amazing, so it's all good.

  • Castle was watched in the company of my mom, which meant a lot of pausing and recapping and explaining, but it's really nice to be able to watch a show with someone and squee.

  • Supernatural is still absent from my life (especially considering I barely even have time to read fic or meta) but my wallpaper's a screencap of the Dean's promo bit, and when mom asked who it was, out came Google Images and parental approval. Seriously, that boy is too pretty.

  • Human Target was Human Target again! \o/ Rejoice! Read more... ) So yeah, Human Target was its usual crazy fun self with the blatant disregard for reality we all know and love and I clapped like a happy, happy seal.


Links of the Day:
Supernatural: Read more... )
Doctor Who: Read more... )
Sherlock: Read more... )
Other Fandom: Read more... )
Multifandom: Read more... )
Random: Read more... )


* Monty Python and the Holy Grail

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